Escape

There is no escape, reality has been knocking on our door for a long time. Today I finished cleaning from the holidays, the confetti finally vacuumed off the floor. After making lunch, Mason was trying to tell me something. And I can't believe how I replied, "I could not understand one word you just said" And then tears and then 15 minutes later he slowly told me, "I fell flat on my face and hit my head on the floor" Do I ever feel like the worst mom. I walked around in a daze today knowing that the New Year was going to be tough and that life can not go on sugar coated forever. I find myself asking Mason yes or no questions. Mason nods or shakes his head. He prefers not to talk when others are around. There may come a time where we wish no visits; so please understand as your friendship mean so much. Mason escapes reality by computer and video games. He has even logged all the games he plays. Star Wars Lego echos in my head. It is a challenge at lunch and dinner. Tonight was a bowl of Life cereal. Lunch, peanut butter and jelly. Chocolate milk and yogurt drinks are his favorite too. While mom and dad enjoy the wonderful home-cooked meals from friends. There is so much to be thankful for. Even when smiles and laughter seem to fade, we thank you for being there. So thank you for letting us Escape reality during the holidays.
A poem I wrote awhile ago seems fitting tonight; as I know no other way to describe my emotions. Everyday we cherish each smile and especially the laughs that fills our hearts with joy.

Come out and Play
Tell me how to face each day,
The clouds are all too gray.
Can Mason come out to play?
What's a mom to say?
Where's our normal day?
Why must it be this way?
Please, Mason come out and play!!
Numbness won't ever go away.
Tears fall down like rain,
Why this forever Pain?
Where is our rainbow today?
I'd do anything to watch you play.