Thursday was quite the day. I am not Elastic Girl; my arms were stretched in different directions, and I kept repeating, "you can do this." But I have no super powers. There is no magic wand. I just do the best I can and sometimes that isn't even right. I am not going to go into details. It's just me trying to repair the broken. And I can't tell you how many times I have heard time heals. There is no time frame with grief everyone has their days. I have reached the stage where I must do something. Go, Go, Go. But there is also a voice yelling at me to slow down. And two other children tugging at my sleeve saying, mom I need you. Thoughts and words are scrambled. We are doing our best. And the smile you see on the outside is genuine. I am ready for the weekend. And I know it's not Mother's Day weekend but I am going to find time to sit and relax.
After coming upstairs, Ally still rubbing her eyes says, " Mom I had a dream you were a super hero. Me, dad and you. " I don't need to be a super hero when I have such SUPER kids. Have a super weekend everyone.
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Andria, I saw you on Thursday on the way to school, Maverick was lagging behind. I thought to myself how hard it is for you to keep everything and everyone together. I have to admit I cannot imagine how you are feeling, I still check your blog everyday and catch myself crying about what happened to Mason. I check your blog because I too want to keep your son's memory alive, I feel you post because you want people to know and to remember. I keep the laminate picture of Mason from his celebration service at my clinic and my son uses it as a bookmark. You and your family touched many hearts, probably more than you know it.
I was sitting here trying hard to think of something wise and inspiring to say. All I kept thinking was I miss Mason......
Thinking of you every day.
You are wonderful Andria, and I hope you have the best weekend. :)
thinking of you all and knowing this grief journey is a long one....but you are real and that helps the hurt...be so blessed
Youre right, you dont have to be a super hero, that's not your job and no one expects you to be! Youre job is to be the person God intended you to be and you're doing a great job at that!I hope that the blog helps you to get through some of the hard times, obviously there are still lots of people reading it and you continue to inspire us!
"It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone." — Rose Kennedy
You all are in our prayers.
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