Many Links of Mason
- Mason's Legacy Continues December 2011
- Make a Difference for Mason-facebook
- Lights, Stripes, and SNOW-facebook
- Heartland Lions Eye Bank Article
- Brookridge BBQ video-facebook (2010)
- Magic of Christmas-Youtube
- 2010 Summer Memories-Youtube
- Channel 9 News Valentines for Mason
- Channel 41 Valentines for Mason
- Fox 4 News Keeping Mason's Memory Alive
- Dynamite Video - Youtube
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Birthday wishes to Heaven
We all have our ups and downs. This week finds me more irritated and out of control, like a runaway train going 125 mph. Life. One day happiness exploded inside only everyone around me was down or had some problem; I had to fight for a smile. I am stuck on a line; the bottom of the ocean below and fresh air above. I get close to the surface and another weight gets added. And all my insides want to do is laugh. It is so inappropriate but I just want to laugh.
My mom thinks an anti-depressant is the answer to my laundry piles, etc. I won't even go there. I am not against; but I am not on the bottom of the ocean.
Maybe she forgot what today is. Because today is hard; really there should be a birthday cake with ten candles, ten balloons, a list of friends, a new video game, a song to sing, and a wish to be made. It sucks beyond any words can describe. I get so tired of the numbness that forever is a part of me. I am forever trapped but, I stay safely in the middle; I have balance. Depression the bottom of the ocean, and the air above my salvation.
Last night as I closed my eyes; anger consumed my soul. I had an eerie vision of people floating in the ocean; a terrible vision. It quickly vanished..I guess today I am missing that splash that makes me feel alive. Maybe it's because there are so many kids this week that are losing their battle too. And there is no one throwing them a life jacket. It's out of our reach!! Someone please find a cure.
Mason there is a thousand wishes I have for you. You know I would give you the world. I promised a big celebration at age 10. Should we celebrate, I can't get past the candles..maybe we'll let the gentle breeze blow them out..
Thank you for every second, every breath...
If only I could send you a basket full of strawberries, a gallon of Birthday party ice cream, and the latest greatest any thing your heart desires.
Thank you everyone for Mason's birthday wishes... he can feel the LOVE. Later this week we will collect the cards from the zoo.